Easier to run

it's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It is so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I have kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they have played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I did not have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never bee a past
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I do not feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change

It is easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It is so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone